fun! not...

why does everything have to be so difficult?! a little update:

friday night while my mom was babysitting she took it upon herself to just throw away zachary's last two pacifiers. (uggh) we've been talking and trying to get rid of them anyways, so not a big deal. i just would have liked to mentally prepare myself for it first! and now today is tuesday, and we have not run to the store to buy new ones! yay for us! oh yea, and zachary's doing pretty good without them too... very irritable but better than expected!

last night me and matt went looking at a few properties for rent. a cute condo, couple cute townhouses... all needing association approval! which sucks because of matt's background. we'd get denied for sure and lose out on like $200. so that's a no-go. so matt calls karen and asks if she would mind if we just stay here for another year, and we'll do some work on the house to make it look nice cause i'm annoyed at everything. now he's saying he still wants to look at some houses in hollywood/ghetto that the realtor said we would be able to get into no problem.

i got excited about moving. then i got excited about staying here but actually making this into our home and not just the place we live. now i have to keep looking?! stupid thing to be stressed out/annoyed over, but whatever. i'm pregnant. i'm allowed.

my back hurts.