as if it couldn't get any better

our landlords put an eviction notice on our door this morning. three days. it's not legal (yet) but it's there. we either have to pay up or get out. this sucks. i have no doubt in my mind that karen and wayne will take this to court if need be. that would prolong the process, but either way there's still only the two options. and we're still screwed either way. matt has really fucked shit up. he still won't answer his phone, so he doesn't even know. i already spent 45 minutes on the phone with my mom crying. i really don't even know what to do. i guess me and zachary will be back to sleeping in my mom's living room. this fucking sucks. it's not fair, to me or to zachary. i know part of this is my fault for letting it go on for so long and not forcing matt into rehab or leaving his ass, but i can't believe matt is putting his family through this. zachary shouldn't have to deal with this shit, and being 7 months pregnant, neither should i. i'm so upset. i can't even keep myself from crying now. i want to strangle him. then at least i'd get his life insurance money. jk though. i don't have the strength or energy for this shit right now. i don't know what to do anymore.